soooooooooooo...

HI! my poor deserted blog. i have to just write something. or i will continue to write nothing. so, the excuses are as follows: holidays, then more holidays. but, that's just a cover up. i think the real issue? i was afraid. i was afraid to give words to all of the emotions that i have been feeling. the anticipation of kevin's deployment required all i had in me to hold it together. had i given words to those emotions, i think i would have fallen apart. denial served me much better in this instance.

but, he's gone. and i'm okay. we're all okay. so, let the blogging begin!

happy valentine's day!

i was surprised (to say the least) with flowers from my wonderful man today. given that he's sitting on a ship in the middle of the ocean, i'm not quite sure how he managed that, but he did. even though i cut my hair :) and i'm flattered. love you babe.