well, well, well miss layla. i'm confident in saying that today was the most scared i've ever been in my entire 31 years on this earth. i could hardly breathe this morning. it was all i could do to get all of us ready to go. my heart was in my throat from the moment my eyelids slammed open at 6 am until we climbed back into the car after our appointment. my anxiety must have been evident to kaia, who gave me the purple bracelet this morning, which matched the green one she was wearing...and told me that we would be together even though she was not with me. all because we had matching bracelets. you were with me, kaia. thank you.
you always hear that to have a child is to consequentially carry your own heart outside of your body for the rest of your life. and at no point in my chidrens' lives has that been more clear than today. i was terrified that someone was going to grab my heart and stomp on it leaving it incapable of ever being the same.
i can say that that didn't happen today. we're still waiting for the results from the pediatrician. but, i have more hope. for now my heart is still safe. and so are my children.
4 comments:
I'm thinking about you and your sweet little girl (and your sweet big girl, too). Praying that you get some good news soon.
Hang in there Mama. The waiting is so hard. Its so hard not having any control, especially when our child is so, so little. I'm keeping you and Layla in my thoughts and prayers. And, can I just say---what a sweet girl Kaia is, what a sweet, sweet gesture. BIG ((HUGS)) to you all.
Adorable cupcake photo! We are thinking of you!
Thinking of you. :)
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